pondering......

feeling rather emo now. :(

final test coming, cny and then exams.

probably im kinda stressed up because of all these events.something to rejoice over the weekend will prolly be the event ytd.

anyhows, worked for a corporate event ytd and it was supa fun! update soon after ive got the pictures from fyonne darling.

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ive gotta confessed- people do have flaws. and there's always two sides of a coin. there are people who loves you and similarly, people who hatesdislikes you. not using word 'hate' based on assumptions that people judged u based on first impression.

people cant be hating u based on just an encounter with you, right? if so, these people are so shallow and pls, fuck off.

and.... im giving it a go of quitting my current PT job. having worked >1year, surely there's fun but also, i'll considered, 'disturbance' from my customers.

yes, i admitted my job's kinda complicated and messy. there are good and bad friends around.

having worked in sucha complicated environment doesnt mean i'll turn bad.

i know its hard but u will never know unless u put yourselves in my shoes.

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sometimes desperate moves for desperate measures. or maybe it could be me, i dont know how to express myself and thus, the misunderstandings or could it be, your jealousy?

no doubt it does affect a bit but i know im old enough to differentiate right from wrong and you shd know me well from others.

having no support from frens and family is albit discouranging but i know its for my good, not that i dun understand.

i wanna clarify, im still the same person like u know me one year ago or longer.

or isit, we have drifted apart and thats why you understand me no longer?

if you know me well, im not one who gossips or talked bad about you unless you started the fire burning.

after *** told me about those things you said, i think you're really not worthy as her fren.

how could you treat your fren like this?

i may not be in any postition to judge just because i dun know u well as compared to her but surely, i have eyes to see the treatment.

similarly you might think i didnt treat her well, but hey i know her fucking longer than you did and pls, if we arent best frens then explains why isit that our friendship can last so long and... why she always have complaints about you?!

like i said, people tends to have sadder mmt more than happy times when we grow older. guess i have emo times more than i smile more.

having said that, it brings back to then, the day you came up as a surprise after knowing im havin a bad time. thanks for being so sweet and i appreaciate that.

admitting to mistakes done is not good enough, having changed is the key.

:)

i used to enjoy being a mediator cause i hate to see friends turing into foes, couples turing into friends. but now, ive changed. i guess, i should just mind my own business because.. human are a selfish lot and it doesnt pay to be kind. they wldnt thank you for helping them reconcile but words you meant no harm will be the cause of the dislikeness.

if thats the reason, i will have myself to blame because im not one good with words.