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i wonder isit too much time on hands tt led t thinkin much?! it's just complexity in me, seriously. it cld have alr developed long ago, just that i kept myself in denial, not wanted t face reality. keep dodgin away from da prob, but now, here i am. stuck. with. myself. it's a lesson learnt. to FACE UP AND NOT RUN AWAY FROM IT. i had a dream. it wakes me up, hard on my face. to the probs we have been avoidin. quarrels,bickerins,fights have been making themselves often. im reli tired,sick & wrung out. many a times, i kept myself quiet, not responding avoidin quarrels cus im reli sick of it. i knew we both tried. to make one another ;) but still, deep in us, we aren. we kept broodin & readin too much into tiks. L.O.V.E is abt patience,trust,tolerance. do we? its weird, i shd say tt nite, if u rem.... wonder why it happens? i cldn figure too. perhaps it has reach its expiry? my doubt. can we work things out? sorry. umpteens of it. i cldn be the BEST gf. dun tell mi im d best among cus it's not true. at least to me, it appears so. im cldn be gentle,sweet,caring wadeva u name it. yes, mayb it has always been one-man-show. u are d one givin in, i noe; but at least i can say, i tried too. im clueless, i duno wads wrong. i duno wads d soln. i hate changes, but i have tried t be wad u wanted me to, bit by bit. i loathe being questioned, being tied down. i noe my status, seriously dere's reli nth for u t worry for. no infatuation will ever happened, cus im not those kind. at least my gals know. always hope we can be open. no lyin no secrets. but have u wonder y? cus it always led t quarrels & paying back in ur own coin. if, we cld gif each other more space, more freedom things may not turn nasty. i have always remember, i am plural. have faith- in me & yrself. :) im still holdin on, like you. ' god bless. QQin
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